Marvelous Things

is strangely therapeutic. Cleaning has always been therapeutic for me though. I work with this really nice guy named Kris. I’m working on making him get a facebook but he says he doesn’t have the time. I guess a full time job and a triple major kinda keeps you occupied.

Anyway, today the fan that sucks all of the smoke out broke so I swear I’m going to die of smoke inhalation, haha. They fixed it, but the smoke paired with ninety degree kitchen temps is no fun. Break is over. How pathetic is it that i blogged on my break?

We made waffles (from a mix, ha) with whipped cream and strawberries. But the best part is how super-random our conversations are whenever we’re together. I’m pretty sure we went from talking about bananas to sex jokes we didn’t understand in sixth grade to Catcher in the Rye.

Nick is going to do so well in New York. I always feel like he’s so confined being in Klamath Falls when he is bursting with so much creativity. A lot of things he would have to say wouldn’t be appreciated by Klamath :)

Stephanie needs out of her house. Badly. She’s never been allowed to be on her own because her parents shelter her so much. Going across the country will be good for her. Vermont is the perfect mix of hippie and yuppie for her too, so I’m sure she’ll be happy.

Nick’s been my best friend since we were about three weeks old (well, I guess he’s two weeks older, haha) and Stephanie and I have been friends since seventh grade. It’s so weird that we won’t be able to hang out and carry out our silly plans like we did in high school.

burn a lot of bridges.

i would love another one, but i’m too scared to get another one because i don’t want to disappoint my dad.

i know you’re supposed to “live for yourself” and all that, but my dad has devoted most of his time to filling in the holes left by my mother. so i feel kind of indebted to him, as if i have to succeed and look perfect so my mom and her family can’t point fingers at him as a terrible father.

goddang divorce messes you up.

i hate when people are intolerant of others’ beliefs.

whether you’re an athiest, a devout christian, or something completely different.

just accept people. i can’t stand it when christians are narrow-minded or hateful. one of the main message of christianity is acceptance, but not many christians take it to heart. who did jesus hang out with in the bible? prostitutes like mary magdalene and crooked tax collectors.

i also can’t stand when athiests and agnostics are rude about people who do have faith. you wouldn’t want someone telling you that everything you believe in is bullshit or doesn’t matter, would you? if you think you can be as good as a person without religion, prove it.

gah. people need to learn to be decent, whether it’s through a book or by their own life experience.

i like him more that he’s getting older.

haha. i’m going to miss him.

GAH! I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF.

I think I’m going to watch some Arrested Development and go to bed.

A perfect and relaxing ending to a super stressful day :)

for some reason, that was closure.

maybe it’s because i’m not the quiet, insecure girl i was when he was around.

i can’t wait to move, i can’t wait to experience new things, i can’t wait to grow :)

it’s been a year, STOP fucking with me.

an english blueblood husband :)

not necessarily now, but one day. haha.

fuuuuccckkkk.

my heart starts beating super fast, and i can’t breathe in normally.

sigh.

Moving is so damn expensive. $1015.32 combined for rent, security deposit, and utilities.

suckkkk. growing up is no fun!

(okay, a little fun)

these cinnamon rolls smell waaaay good.

when my mom used to have a special salt shaker that actually had a sugar and cinnamon mix in it because my brother and i went through a phase where we LOVED cinnamon toast.

i have to get up early tomorrow morning so i can finish making cinnamon rolls for my dad and brother. i’m only allowed to use the stove early in the morning because we have no a/c and it’s been so  hot recently!

i love the glamour and the class the celebrities used to have back then.

i just love to watch old movies like a streetcar named desire, casablanca, or citizen kane because i idolize actresses like ingrid bergman, audrey hepburn and mae west.

i think that accessories like big hats, gloves, and fancy cigarette holders were amazing.

gah. i’m going nowhere with this. but honestly, why was i born in this decade?